The chosen quagmire or trap is where actions are distraction checking the boxes of societal expectation also feels like a solution although it creates bigger problems that you know and still you want to be utterly trapped in those bills and EMIs. In reality, you are just trying to escape that which you have tried to control, but are now convinced is impossible You are running away for personal sanity, while adding more pressure to your life. And why do you choose this option, The simple answer is you enjoy this pain instead. Also being busy and occupied is best way to be productive by avoiding recurring thoughts of self doubt that pull you down. it frees you from overthinking and the crisis it creates